On my most challenging days, fear rages, anxiety feels like angry waves rising and crashing in my whole being, and getting to the other side feels too far away. On days like those, times like that, I cling to the triumph of getting through moment by singularly tolerable moment.
On my best days, I want the minutes to last for hours. I know how precious and fleeting they can be, so I work not to take any bit for granted.
But most days aren’t just bad or good, challenging or easy; they are a string of everything.
These last couple of years, staying focused on the present moment has been my guiding light. I start to wobble when I look too far ahead or too far back. If I come back to right now, this moment, I find my way to the next.
I shakily breathe through the moments I can’t see my way out. I open all my senses to soak in the ones so beautiful I could cry.
These moved-through moments string together like dot to dot paper puzzles.
It’s hard to see how this mess of little dots could ever be anything but an incoherent jumble. But the more dots, the more moments, the more the picture is revealed, and the more I realize it’s all part of something bigger and more beautiful than I can know.
I hold on to that. I have the best moments, the worst moments, and everything in between. To push the analogy, I miss dots. I look too hard at dots behind me and try to skip to dots way ahead, which never works out.
My job in this puzzle is to show up in each of them the best I can, move through them, and even if I can’t see it now, hold on to hope that one day I’ll look back at a big beautiful picture I couldn’t have imagined.
This little ring with its dot to connecting dot is a wearable reminder to come back to now, this dot, this moment, the only place I can do the living I’m meant to do.
Made by hand in our south Louisiana studio.
Each piece varies slightly due to its handmade nature.
*Note: Sterling Silver and 14k Gold prices may vary due to fluctuation in the gold and silver markets.